truly sucker

noticed that every human being is selfish
that includes me , of course .
seriously , the longer i think of it , i realize i am more selfish than anyone else .
moron .

why does time flies so quickly ?
it does not let me have enough time to think and understand this world more .
i don't understand .
if u don't like it . u can choose to don't do it .
but u choose to blame it on another person .
figure it out yourself .
don't tell me u don't know that u must wait for everyone to sit in their place then only u can pass the papers ?
fuck .

why did that feeling came back ?
i thought we are strangers now . J
i even tried to hate u . but i guess i failed to do that for a long time .
u spoiled my mood . i hate u , maybe , i think so .
bastard .

sorry that i made u lost your self confidence and made u feel sad , dissapointed and sometimes ashame .
but i don't think u know that , my self confidence are gone too .
i don't know when , where or how .
at least u still have a clue about it .
since when , i felt so unsecured so afraid so hopeless .
since when , everything people tell me , i just treat it as a harassment .
i always laughed at myself to being such a failure .
jerk .

this post is so boring , fucking damn idiot .
and omg . too many bad words .
what the hell .
just ignore the emotional me .