what kind of day ?

today , is the first day of school reopen .
i didnt do anything in school .
just dreaming or thinking , im not sure .

what happen to me ?
what happen to us ?
what happen to the past ?

i just dont understand .
im such a stupid bitch now...

why did i had this kind of reaction ?
why do i have this kind of feeling ?
why am i crying so hard ?

am i still the old Tan Xin Yee ?

where did the confidence went to ?
where did the bravery went to ?
where did the hard working cells went to ?
where did the smart brain went to ?

why did i treat everyone that badly ?
where did the caring me went to ?
what have i done to everyone ?

friends , family and strangers .

sometimes i just wish one day when i feel asleep , i wont wake up anymore .
so that i will stop hurting everyone .

too many questions ,
too little time for me to find out the answers .
will these questions be answered ?
i think no...

the end of 1 week holiday

18 . 3
on the way to breakfast , had a small accident .
hate that stupid indian , brainless !
its his fault but scold my parents . wtf .

dont remember wat i did for the day edi .
stay at home ? think so...

19 . 3
went to MCD for lunch .
after that , cancel the plan to Penang and headed to Jusco Bandar Perda . and wat i remember is that its so boring .

20 . 3
went to meet my besties in KFC then went to chor huey's house .
chat with them for only 3 and half hours . its just not enough !
i really love chating and spending time with them .

21 . 3
went to Pacific cuz dad wanna buy things for his laptop and mom wanna buy com games .
after that to Sunway cuz Logan kor wan us to buy the newest Sony camera but we didnt make it .
nothing to do there so we went to Starbucks and spend our time there .


















there is a flower exabition and its kinda nice .
22 . 3
im goin to stay at home and finish all the homeworks . like wat chuanmelon says , last day of holiday is homework day .