I always Disappoints You

Another personal record from me , sit outside the class . Wuhu !!
I admit I didn't do her homework , so TAKE YOUR DESK AND SIT OUTSIDE . okay.
became the back door's guard with Pei Huan .
then suddenly , i remembered and told her that : We always help our class guard the door since Year 6 hor ? or maybe even earlier ? Every time its us de lor... The one time that i remember clearly is Year 6th Mathematics class , wait a minute , is it Year 6th ? Aiyor.. nvm lar.. The point is its never any other people . no matter whatever homework , sure is us de lar..
hahaha.. What friends are for huh ?

Sitting there is okay , except for the fact that the sunlight is shinning straight on us . Luckily both of us is already obviously tan skin .
Yesterday PK 1 walk past our class , kept on look at me to lecture and ask . Today , she walk past AGAIN ! Why every time also English Period ? U look at the time table already , is it ?
I didn't realize she is there , until...
a hand tapping my shoulder .
creepy , Thank Goddess I didn't scream . That would be embarrassing : P
She asked : why today outside again ? Like this how to take PMR ?
She looked straight in my eyes and say : Be a good student arh..
Whoa.. at that moment , i was afraid she recognise me . but what happened is a past tense , so there is nothing i can do .

When the class ended , Miss Teoh walked to my desk , which is still outside .
she said : Disappointed . What happened to you ? It's going to exam . Don't knock your head to the wall , okay ?
I : nod my head .
haiz.. what to do ? she is the teacher .

I am an emotional gal .
U will never know what will happen the next second .
I Change quicker than the Weather .
U will be scare when
I really get mad
U won't like me when
I am angry

I wish for nothing more

i guess we made another new record for our class today , for not bringing books .
11 person standing on the chair outside the class along the corridor . WOW.
What A View !!
hahah.. at that time , i really hoped she will make us stand there for 2 periods . XP but i guess she still have a good side deeeeeeeeeeeeep down .
seriously , i don't feel ashamed about it , but i didn't tell my parents .
hey , teenagers must have secrets , right ?
when im standing there , there are 2 things on my mind .

1. how many times have i stand like this ? as a reply to myself , i just grin .
2. its freaking cold .

well , wth , its over and at least im honest about it .
i know i am wrong and so i deserved punishment .

school is random today . spent most of the time fooling with Kah Soon .
We even discuss about going to Penang Island together . Hope that it works .
People won't stop changing . We won't know what will happen next .
i am kinda emotional these days . why do i care so much about u? why am i so busybody? It's so obvious u doesn't want me to know . where did the trust and strong bound between the 3 of us went? i treat both of u with all my heart. But i think u don't believe me any more. U make me wanna cry. PH , PC
Yuck .
Having sleep disorder these days , my mind and body aren't cooperating .
feel like hell . What to do ?

ate dinner in Korea Taste Restaurant then bought a cake home from Alma .
details and pictures will be up a lot more longer .
Hapi Birthday little bro !!
XD

why can't everyday be like this ?
fun and relaxing .
i don't have to think anything .
can you? God , give me 3 wishes ?

it has been a nice and relaxing day .
really enjoyed it . how i wish it will stop there .
its late now . so i have to stop here .
sweet dreams .
XOXO

You make my Day ♥

so , today is just another tired day .
wasted the whole morning in school .
thanks to my two best friends , they called me !! which is kinda unexpected . hahaha..
Went to school at 10am , spent some time under the hot sun . omg . I think they just doesn't care about our badly damaged skin .
After that , we had a so-called station game . But the truth is its just an unbelievably childish , suitable for guys game . ugh .
pick 3 person [ a guy and 2 girls ] to form a group or as they call it , family .
the guy must be an artificial mother and the girls get to choose to be kid or father .
father must eat 6 biscuits , tie the kid's hair , feed it milk and help the kid to wear diapers
where else mother have to wear her bra which is make from balloons .
those people just can't stop themselves from thinking dirty sex things , is it ?
why can't they learn to respect others ?
ugh ! come to think of it , i should not waste my time on them because it's just like a drop of water in the sea .

Actually , we can go home real early , but because of someone wanna complain .
we need to wait until noon .
But that is what friends for . I forgive U . and i still love U . ^^

but at least i spent some great time with my parents .
went Megamall at around four or six ?
bro went around by himself so I have my parents all for me !! YAY !!
I am pathetic . Bought a lot of things with them . ^^
We are a classic Pepsi supporter , bought 8 bottles of 1.5litres Pepsi . wahahahah...
Reach home at 11pm . tired but real happy !!
LOVE YOU !! muacksss ! ♥

wasted

today's horoscope said : pisces , u will enjoy a job that u have never done . and later u will continue doing that job as in the back scene .
haha. this is kinda right .
because today i skipped school !! omg . why am i so proud ? XP
i wake up quite early . does 9am looks early to u ?
then i helped daddy with the DIY grape pole or whatever it's called .
spent my whole morning with it .
actually , im not a bad worker myself . haha .

i really don't understand why u dislike me spending time with him .
are u that afraid ?
please . just think deeply . mum

i like it when my mummy smile .
so please just smile more and try to stay happy .

got my maths marks today .
hahhahahahha
i got 47 .
nothing to say about it because its kinda expected .

well , today [ 11.09.2009 ] is perfectly wasted , except the morning part .
boo.

test forever

trial exam is over !! Yeah !

wait . oh . i forgot .
3 days later , there will be another test again and it will last till PMR .
yay . great .

what the fuck .
so long , my early to bed routine .
hello , chinese tea and instant cup noodle .

crap .
i don't get it .
people react differently in everything .
well , actually i get it .
but it's too obvious and too much difference that i have a hard time to accept and filter it .
Oh My God . You just love to torture human beings , right ?
well , You have done a great job in that . at least to me .
damn .

Not to Forget !
Hapi 15th Birthday , Lee Chin Chin !

truly sucker

noticed that every human being is selfish
that includes me , of course .
seriously , the longer i think of it , i realize i am more selfish than anyone else .
moron .

why does time flies so quickly ?
it does not let me have enough time to think and understand this world more .
i don't understand .
if u don't like it . u can choose to don't do it .
but u choose to blame it on another person .
figure it out yourself .
don't tell me u don't know that u must wait for everyone to sit in their place then only u can pass the papers ?
fuck .

why did that feeling came back ?
i thought we are strangers now . J
i even tried to hate u . but i guess i failed to do that for a long time .
u spoiled my mood . i hate u , maybe , i think so .
bastard .

sorry that i made u lost your self confidence and made u feel sad , dissapointed and sometimes ashame .
but i don't think u know that , my self confidence are gone too .
i don't know when , where or how .
at least u still have a clue about it .
since when , i felt so unsecured so afraid so hopeless .
since when , everything people tell me , i just treat it as a harassment .
i always laughed at myself to being such a failure .
jerk .

this post is so boring , fucking damn idiot .
and omg . too many bad words .
what the hell .
just ignore the emotional me .