Monday, December 8

Life Advice

This is worth a blog post. Just by tweeting it seems to not do justice for it. 

Well, it seems like ages had passed since the last time I had the chance to really listen to my dad. So..

I feel so blessed that I get to go back to my grandmother's place on the weekend, where my dad seems to be the happiest. He waited for me until midnight, prepared food for me and even waited to apply medicine for me. 

As usual, a person who can't tolerate pain, me, shouted when he applied the medication on my wounds. 
Softly, he suddenly said to me.
"Try to learn how to tolerate pain. You must slowly control yourself to not show your pain. Remember, Do not show your pain to others. Two reasons. The persons who hate you, would be much happy when they see your pain. Where else, the persons who love you, would be sad when they see your pain. So, why would you want to show the pain you are suffering?"

In the beginning, I wasn't taking what he is saying seriously because I was just in the pain of my wounds. Quite till the end, I noticed my dad is telling me this with a tone I had not heard for a long time. The strong words with a soft and caring tone. 

My daddy, will always be irreplaceable.


Sunday, August 11

未完成

问题:
         你认为什么时刻是最难过的?
         • 亲人离开?
         • 得不到自己想要的?
         • 被遗忘?
         • 跟在乎的人说再见?


最近的情绪比较奇怪吧? 不是开心, 不是难过, 就只是普通..
简单来说, 没有感觉

我特别喜欢 <吸血鬼日记> 的其中一个情节 : Elena, turn her feelings off.

我在想, 终于有人明白了吗? 因为我觉得自己是在做那样的事.

压抑自己的心情不容易, 可是也不难.

我选择不跟他人特别亲近, 因为害怕依赖, 害怕受伤, 害怕伤害别人, 害怕离别的时候..
你说,不要什么都害怕..可是我暂时还没有那个勇气..

你知道吗? 最让人伤感的事: 男孩对女孩好, 日子久了, 女孩从一开始的抗拒 到最后喜欢上了男孩 和 需要男孩 时.. 男孩已经没有了喜欢女孩的感觉 也没有想要继续对她好.. 而只是平淡地当女孩是普通的朋友..
那时, 无论如何, 都应该要给女孩点时间..习惯..明白自己不应该自以为是


我不想再落泪, 不想自己随时都被恶梦吓醒。不想那么脆弱。